My daughter, Myself

She doesn't always say the right thing or fit in with the crowd that I thought she would,
Many times I find her to be aggressive and overtly negative with the status quo life we live.

I've been known to get frustrated with her and wonder who in the world she is like, because it's not me.

And then I remember.

I remember the girl who told her father, "If he doesn't like me without make up, then he won't like the real me." I recall Metallica spilling from my headphones and the look of disgust I got from my parents when they read some of my poetry.

Many time when she grumbles under her breath as she heads upstairs after I'm done yelling at her because of her grades or when the dishes weren't done... I can almost say the words coming out of her mouth. I said them 19 years ago to my own parents.



My second daughter is outspoken, an original masterpiece that can't be formed into a mold.
She is an amazing artist, a talented writer and as I found out tonight, tons of fun to walk around shops with.

I am thankful to have been given this time with my daughter Ashlyn, she's a special girl that is already 17 years old and will be out of the house soon. I've only got a short amount of time to teach her the things she needs to learn... Thank goodness she's a fast learner.

30 Days about Me - Photo I took

Yes, I am a day late, but I’m making up for lost time!

Yesterday’s entry was a hard choice. I take a lot of photos and since I got my beloved Nikon, however some of my older photography still has a hold of my heart.

Here is a photo of my daughters in the summer of 2009. It was about two weeks before Dave and I moved in together. The rain storm in Colorado on this day was impressive and after the downpour I did my favorite thing, took my kids out in the aftermath and played in puddles.

These are my three youngest daughters. Faith was 6 years old, Issa was 2 years old and LaLa was a little over a year.

I love this photo of them; it’s a reminder of different times, when I was a single mom of six kids.

I wouldn’t trade my life now for the world, it’s a blessing everyday when I wake up next to the man I Love and know that it’s all been worth it!

Aloha Friday - 10/22

Welcome to this week’s edition of Aloha Friday.

In Hawaii, Aloha Friday is the day that they take it easy and look forward to the weekend. So I thought that on Fridays I would take it easy on posting, too. Therefore, I’ll ask a simple question for you to answer. Nothing that requires a lengthy response.

If you’d like to participate, just post your own question on your blog and leave your link at An Island Life. Don’t forget to visit the other participants! It’s a great way to make new bloggy friends!

My question is:

What do you do to encourage self esteem in your daughter, niece, granddaughter, etc?

This is an area I am not the best in! I have 5 daughters, the first and second daughters weren't my best work.

I've tried to teach them confidence, positive self thinking and beauty techniques. I think I lacked in some areas. Being a bit too harsh when critiquing their hair or an outfit.

My 19 year old seems to be slowly pulling out of the teenage angst and hatred of her own body. She's learning that we are our worst enemies and that the only person who will love her in the mirror when she wakes up in the morning is herself.

I've started to learn to halt the harsh ideas I have about my own body. I could stand to lose a few pounds, firm up that under bicep area (WHAT IS THAT??) but I'm also learning to keep it to myself. My kids don't need to know what I think about myself... they need to learn to love what THEY see.

Wordless Wednesday - Fall Photos

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It's the last night

Yep... that's it.

Eight weeks on January 8th, I went into the hospital thinking my water broke.
It hadn't but they wanted to do an emergency induction, and the morning of the 9th, my baby girl was born. (I wasn't supposed to be off work until the 11th, I had soooo much to do still!)

So now.. here it is.

8 weeks later, I have to go back to work tomorrow. *sighs* I'm excited, I'm scared, I'm anxious but worst of all.. I'll miss my girls.

I'd like ya'll to meet them.
Here is Issa... she's my beauty. She was born Christmas day of 2006. She is 14 months old









And then, on January 9th.... the littlest one came along. She is now 8 weeks old.

I'll miss them horribly tomorrow but, I know it's for the best for all of us! I need to make some money again, and they have an amazing baby sitter! She loves them so much and is their surrogate grandmother.

Think about me tomorrow, I'll be at work, blogging a little, trying to find motivation.

Thanks for listening to me... :(

Warm Blessings,

Lilith