Monday, March 10, 2008

Monday Morning

Good morning everyone!

I finally went to bed at 11pm after posting, and talking to my BFF on the phone. (More like rambling about my ex-husbands (my 1st) wife who keeps trying to contact me, just to be "friends".) My BFF was saying her guy was finally moving to Texas after a year of BS. I can only say... it'll be an interesting few months :)

I slept off and on, waking up because I was worried I slept through the alarm clock. (Nope, the 8 week old didn't wake me up, my own mind did that!)

Then, I had a dream that Kris (Issa and Lauli's Dad), had a daughter. Which would have meant he had cheated on me when we were together. What a horrible dream to wake up from. I was tearing up. I was *JUST* getting over him. I was just to the point where I was ok that he and Sarah were going to date. I found this out on Friday, and it didn't freak me out, I was good with it. Mainly because I know him, I know how he works and regardless, it's for the best. He's my friend, perhaps not my closest but, my friend none the less. And it left me open to persue other people, and decide where I want to be.
*Then that stupid dream came up, luckily I should be able to shake it off easy enough.

My doves are cooing in the background. They think they are roosters, sometimes I want to move them out of my room, they are just so noisy. And if you nudge their cage to silence them, they fly around all crazy like, knock over their food bowls and just create a tornado in their cages.

Ok.. I'm dressed now. My makeup isn't on, but I am dressed, smelling good, and my hair is done. Now, I'm going to get my breakfast ready so I can eat at 6am (I'm going back on my old eating plan, so I'll be eating every 3 hours, small meals)

I'll check back throughout the day and post some hello's, and just some blurbs about my day.

OH.. and check out my other blog Lilithology. I'll be posting on that one as well again today, must keep people updated on daily happenings and mindless information!

I hope everyone is having a great day so far.
Warm Blessings,
Lilith

5 comments:

Crystal said...

Girl, I may get up earlier but you go to bed a lot later than I do:) I'm delirious at around 9-10! I try to get to bed before 9 during the week because I get up so early. When I exercise, I get up at 3:30AM. It's the ONLY time I can be by myself and do what I want to do without having to stop evry other minute to help one of the kids do something OR the kids find THAT EAXACT moment to start arguing and I have to stop just to straighten it out, if not, they'll try to duke it out right in front of me..

Ex-husbands wife: I had the same thing happen to me with Roberts (now) wife. And, I have to say, in the beginning I fell for it. I wanted everyone to get along for the kids sake and would even forego my pride to make sure that happened. Time passed and I realised that both of them weren't wanting the same things. They were just trying to manipulate me, the kids and the situation for there personal gain. They knew I would "work" with them but after a while, i'd had enough and ended up calling their bluff.

BFF's guy moving to Texas huh? I'll be on the look out, baseball bat at the ready;o)

You and I are the same even with dreams, lol! I do the same thing as well. If i'm already emotional i'll let it fester until i'm a mess. I have to cath myself, change my thinking pattern and move on. If not, I can't sleep and am grumpy the next day...crazy...

Is this Sarah someone you already know? If you already know her it can be difficult than not knowing them. My ex ended up marrying the best friends wife. So of coarse, WE ALL KNEW EACH OTHER. It was only difficult for me because I couldn't come to terms with knowing that "I" wasn't the one that could make him happy or couldn't make him love me...I WASN'T THE ONE...I knew how the other woman was and it ate on my last nerve. Maybe if I didn't know her it wouldn't have hit me like it did. Of coarse I found out on my 30th bday, by him, that he had cheated. He stated that he was with so many other women he couldn't remember how many. We always rodeoed and sometimes I couldn't go. That's when he would go "play."

It's never easy trying to "let go" of what use to be. The feelings, emotions, routines, it all can be difficult to get through. I'm here for you if you need a shoulder;)

Oh girl, you'll have to take some pictures of them doves! I bet they're a hoot to have around! And you'll have to share what the eating plan is. Not being nosey, well, I guess I am, I love to see what kind of routines other people have for them selves. I do the low carb thing. 3 meals and two snacks. Now if I could just get back on my exercise routine...i've been off for a month...being lazy!!!

Have fun getting back into the working force! Well, we mothers are ALWAYS working but you know what I mean...;)

Crystal said...

I just had to rush over and comment really quick before I went to lunch...I have one thing to say...YOU CAN MOVE BACK TO TEXAS YA KNOW!!!!!LOL! Sorry, had a moment there didn't I;o) I'll be back after lunch to comment on my blog about what all you said! Good luck with the meeting.

Crystal said...

Girl, you and your kids are so beautiful;o) Love the new pictures. Have a good day today!

Lilith Silvermane said...

http://i136.photobucket.com/albums/q169/Lilith_Silvermane/Picture028.jpg

russ said...

I often smell of Clabourne Curve and Mary Kay Domain